Can't do anything

 Every single time I want to do something,  I can't do it. For some reason, every single time I want to do something, there's something stopping from me doing it. And it's not even something I can control. I just want to play Minecraft with my friends but my laptop keeps acting trash and so bad I can't even play the game with my actual graphics card because it recognizes my super trash integrated graphics that isn't even meant for gaming or even anything in general, just it's so frustrating for me to do and there's so many things for me to do and it's just getting too much.

Today I'll just be talking about non sense and nothing at all that has to relate to about anything at all with anything at all I've been talking about and this will just be a let go of everything that has a meaning. I probably won't even make any sense while typing this because I'm not even going to be thinking right while I'm typing this. I'm only doing this to lower down my stress as this was one of the bucket list things that I had to do for one of my many chores and for one of my many tasks that I have to do that benefits me and keeps me bored of everything. Typing isn't fun as there's nothing to talk about except for the things that I've already wrote about in school and the things I've already wrote about before, but with nothing to talk about now, I might have to go back and type about stuff I've already wrote and just copy them while adjusting a bit here and there on the text to make it sort of new and a new established version of that text. Like making a part two of that text and sort of polishing it up with the new experiences of gotten.

I don't even have anything actually useful to talk about and but I just want to finish this task that I have to do for me to not get frustrated as I get mad to myself very easily if I just don't finish a task because I'm too lazy and too mad to do it. I really don't want to type right now and I am typing very slowly with a slow mind, so I might as well just keep repeating on what I've already said for the billionth time on this one text alone. The mental health thing isn't working at all as I've already forgotten it. The only thing that keeps me not mad is by playing football, which isn't forever and that's what makes me sad. I can't play on forever and so there fore my mental health gets worse. I've literally only typed 450 words so far and I can't even get to 1000, so now I'll just keep going and talking about random stuff that I don't even know myself. The stuff that's been going at school has just been getting me bored recently, and that's normal. I believe every school gets repetitive and boring, and the only thing that you actually look forward to is P.E and also break time and mainly lunch time, as that's the only time you can really interact with your friends and talk to them, while in lessons, you cant talk to your friends and you are usually spaced apart really far away as the teacher makes up a seating plan that you have to follow, leading you to have to sit far away from your friends, making you bored, repetitive lessons, and more sad. This is how I feel every single time I have to sit in the very corner in math every single time, and I'm surrounded with only one friend that I don't really talk to, but over time we are more closer friends but not as close as my other friends. We don't really talk to each other in other lessons if we are close and we don't really engage in long conversations. It's sad but at least it's better than having no friends around you like the last time I was in math. I was in the corner last year with no friends around me and it was just really boring. Even my teacher didn't know that I was good friends with some people in the classroom, and the only way he even realised I had some friends with the class is because we had a computer lesson and I decided to partner up with one of my friend and when he saw me, he realised that I had some friends in the class and he asked me, oh you have some friends, I didn't realise you were friends with him. This made me realise that I was really just a person in the corner in a math class. I felt sort of miserable and a bit sad about that, but at the end I was happy because we were in a computer room, playing games. They were low quality, but that's better than nothing and it was much boring than a boring math lesson on a test that we have every single day.

Every single day, science is okay, it's a bit too sciency for my liking and it's a bit too confusing for me to memorise. I prefer to memorise the things that are a bit more simplier and easier to memorise. For english, it's a bit boring, but at least i sit next to my best friend and we usually talk together and we're very childish when we do stuff in english. At least in english as well, we also don't have to write that much in english, which is suprising, because we write more in science and math than we actually do in english. In math, its the same boring thing. It's just a new thing we need to memorise about, but atleast it's not like science where it's super complicated, but the problem in math, we have no practical to do and it's all boring. The only fun time we actually do something is the laptops or the computer room. 

Oh well that's pretty much all the non sense I have to write and I am super bored now and now I am finishied. goodbye